Joy was learning that being fully in the moment was like listening very intently. The ideas that arose in that way were altruistic and full of meaning. They were ideas that it was worth acting on; indeed, that it was important to act on.
She felt the urge to become proficient in the art of acceptance, to learn to live life from the inside out. She could change her attitude to life by changing her mind and her feelings. Engaging with calmness and steadfastness notwithstanding the outer circumstances could become her creed. This she could do simply by focusing her consciousness beyond her emotions and mental chatter, knowing that the outer was secondary and that only the inner held any authentic meaning.
Mental chit-chat served no purpose aside from keeping her – and the rest of the human race – in a constant state of tension and malaise. She was tired of being ruled by her rational mind; being bombarded by its thoughts and having her mental space invaded by whatever memories, judgements or self-defeating patterns it decided to put there. Joy felt sure that she wasn’t the only human being whose head – if not observed – was awash with negative, foreboding thoughts about the future accompanied by feelings of fear and apprehension; or guilty, sad memories of the past and its missed opportunities; or bitterness towards people, who had hurt or disappointed her, with the resentment that lingered on. Why was it such a struggle to remain positive? It’s time for the struggle to end, thought Joy. It’s time for me to know the meaning of my name..
Excerpt from “My Name is Joy”